haha its so difficult to make that curve again
esp when everyone arnd you isnt
but wht right do i have?

i like being yap jia way :D
thou gethsemanie might be hard to pronounce but wells ;)
at least no one asks me silly questions
and wonders if i can understand english
haha ive been swearing alot! xp
abit i was mouthing "fuck" to myself sooo many times today
and saying it out loud qt a few times also
blah bleagh bish bish
rahhhh
i feel like a kukuhead
who's so kiam pa :/
4 days and i cant run away

my watch is still stuck at the stupid city chain
i sent it there for hospitalization THREE weeks ago!
and i want to bring it for comp
cuz i like it alot alot!!

rah now im stuck with that big fat square black watch :/
which is so LIGHT 轻:/
hmmpfh

yay i got the presents! :D
and im soooo happy today :DD
havent been so happy for a long long time
ahhhhh
NC3!!
whee i like(:

and i still think the fa activation was damn hilarious
i actually tried to treat this casualty
:/ i treated her burns and did cpr(HAHA)
but in the end she still died ):
so much for being in comp team haha
i dont even knw how come they chose me in the first place

PRESENTS! :D
i think wht i bought rock!
ah my grp better love me more haha x)
cuz i went broke on their presents :D
yes, in terms of money AND legs :)
there's more to buy lor :))

i shall never ever drink coffee before cca agn hahaha

8 days! and im sure NCs 3, 6 and 10 and NA 2 will all make it :DD

hahaha rachel and i are planning to pon sch tmrw to go jump off the OUB tower
aft gng for duckride
wahaha
dying would be sucha simple solution to everything haha
im sucky
just comp+(not-studied-for)elit test tmrw+(untouched)sci proposal due tmrw+(un-thought-of)speech due on monday+not done at all macbeth proj+not done geog w/b and the freaking you
and i want to go jump off
mei yong dao yao si :/
honestly, someone please make me wakeup
but whtevr it is, two of us dont plan to survive sectwo haha
yah i knw secthrees and fours are worse and the wdv elses;
but humans always tend to think they themselves have the worst problems

my ankle hurts like freaky hell
and theres yet another assessment on um 31st
rahh
ok actually those two things arent related to each other at all
im having insomnia these few days!
rahh like i go in and sleep but i always end up falling aslp only arnd 2am?
and then i think of stupid stuff and i freak myself out at night!
plusplusplus! i'm broke
my wallet is empty
and there's zcomp presents to think of
maybe borrow from my sister or sth
she's richer thn me! cant believe it
haha i think my posts are friggin superficial
i think i have to go memorise my tepid and bedbath agn
dno why haha. paranoid bah. or is it kiasu. wdv

cos the spark's lighted
but there's insufficient oxygen
so harmful substances are produced
but there'll be a abundance of oxygen
late in aprilsecondtwoohohsix

haha chem. which we learnt like this week
so it might wrong, i dont care

and my leg hurts like a pile of shit stinks
haha my fave metaphor now
and i dont knw why but i feel so shit depressed after walking in the rain
because i knw no matter how much i put in, no one cares
its always my fault
no matter what happens
bloody fuck

ohohoh i found this book
published in 1979
i think my mum bought it or sth
and its so vulgar! haha
the first "Fuck you" was on pg2 :p
but it looks like it might be good
i love it if its old

i'm so broke!
haha PENNILESS, literally
xinrong still owes me 4+ bucks!
and doesnt want to return yet :/

eee how im scared
i also dno wht i scared of lah
blahblah
10 days away, and quitting is NOT a choice anymore
i cant run away

actually i dont want to care
its so hard to care
but in the end,
i'll be the one crying

rahh trng today
:(:):
i have homewrk
but obviously and typically,
i dont want to do
not whn its similarity
and stupid chem
chem teacher sucks can
wht trainee teacher
who looks like she's 50 or sth
and talks to us (or at least me) like we're(i'm) a bunch of idiots/an idiot
maybe she thinks i dont understand english
or i have an execptionally low IQ
cos i was looking damn frustrated in class
maybe she thinks its cuz i dont understand lessons conducted in english
wdv shit la, please
i bet she'll eat her own vomit if i told her i got A* for english in PSLE lor
and she'll probably go back to mars if i told her i got A* for chinese too. HAHAHA
friggin' idiot blah

im tired like a pile of shit stinks
haha i like this self-created metaphor (:
and if this is wht you want me to do, shirley, here goes:
8criteria: musnt 口无遮拦, must have a sense of humour, must understand my sarcasm, musnt ask me whether i'm singaporean while looking at me like im a freak(YES), cannot bully me, must be able to tell whn im in a bad mood, must scold/critisise ppl whom i dont like(HAHAHA), and musnt be a boring person.
haha actually it shld be 8 criteria whn im looking for a friend haha.

i miss mcomp.
where everything was so simple
and trngs were so fun
all of you wont bring me down;
i'll prove you ALL wrong
YOU can look down on me all you want
YOU can slap me all you want
YOU can think im a bootlicker all you want
ONE DAY all of you will regret
but you've made me so tired
made me feel so stupid
made me feel so useless
made crying so appealing
made running away from it all so appealing
made me feel tht i shld'nt've gotten myself into this mess at the very start
[haha SHIRLEY i know you wanna hit me! but i still need to say all this]

its so hard to continue trying
continue pretending i cant see anything
continue pretending i dont know anything
i dont know why i stayed in the first place
haha maybe because im stupid
i know i am
and worthless too

but dont worry, i'll get my strength
from places where you cant go to
and i will continue to put in the best that i can

haha K-ing! :D
its not just the singing tht's fun :DD
haha lynette didnt throw peanuts everwhere like i expected :p
and i love gossiping
sinful, yes, but makes life longer! haha
not tht i want a long life
but well its supp to be good to have a long life
i feel so doomed
and its school tmrw
but doom isnt cuz of lessons ):

haha we were talking abt life aft POP today
and the whatnots concerning posts and blahs
and it'd be qt (for want of a better word)bad, yes
haha x)
but i think the scariest thing is how much they'd change ):
ok nvm
its more practical to worry about whts gna happen 14days later

rahh haha i know it happened arnd 1 wk ago
but telling my mum makes me more ji dong haha

WALAU SHE SLAPPED ME
kaos ive never, ever been slapped in my whole entire life
not even by my mother
and she slapped me right across the face
fuck la who is she to slap me lor
i wonder how come i could control myself not to slap her back
bloody bootlicker
go and DIE

rahh rahh rahh >.dont feel better after ranting
cuz i want revenge
wahaha
one day i will make sure that she she'll regret tht she gave me tht slap
vindictive eh haha
我不是好欺负的!

toapayoh for lunch
now im bloated haha
and it was right beside the Kbox we went on friday!
:p


ohno i dont like this
really i dont

wahaha
ehh ive been using it alot today
but wells (:

i think my father's damn funny haha
he thinks a white christmas sounds romantic
wth x'mas is like sooo far away?
and i wont be tricked to go japan so easily haha
white christmas only mah
go snow city can alr (:

cip was qt fun haha
we actually reached there arnd 0830?
we thought we'd definitely get lost
cuz we both didnt know where the youth park is o.O
yea city hall is full of angmohs :x
we walk walk walk in suntec for a few hours
and thn this security guard told us to "Get out. Now."
wdv lah you damn slow can >.<

I WANT MY SATURDAYS!!
hmmpfh
i'm sorry for the way
i've been living my life

woohoo!!
K-ing! :D
we sang for arnd 4 hours
um actually they sang like one more hour hahaha
cuz i had to go home )):

actually we planned to go do homewrk
after alot of uh, consideration, we decided to toa payoh library
so we went and jaslin and xinrong attempted to do their e. lit homewrk
but obviously unsuccessful lah, wht with me and shirley there
chao-ing and gossiping :p
heehee :D
so went for lunch at hawker centre
then we decided to go K
muahaha actually they wanted to go the Somerset one
but thn i convinced them to stay at toa payoh :))
cuz Somerset is so damn friggin' far :p
alamakwasapahpilipalahaibupa
ai--bu ai--bu
haha this is stuck in my head now lah
:DD

cip at orchard youth park tmrw!!
haha no actually im not really excited
but im so high now!!
aargh all their fault neh :D

freak i'm "not authorized" to view my own sqdblog!!

aargh rotting at home :D
so bored neh
though my homework's definitely untouched :p
there's only 6 more trngs to zcomp! ohgosh :s
and they're so sian
Bring Me To Life-Evanescence
How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Were I’ve become so numb
Without a soul, my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and
Lead it back home

Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood to run
Before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become

Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life

Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood to run
Before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I’ve become
Bring me to life(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

Frozen inside without your touch
Without your love
Darling only you are the life among the dead

All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought without a voice without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more

Bring me to life
Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
Call my name and save me from the dark
Bid my blood to run
Before i come undone
Save me from the nothing I’ve become
I’ve been living a lie
There’s nothing inside

heehee i've been sleeping
temporary owl i think =p
haha then tmrw how. :/ i dont think i can wake up lor
then yayness nanny mcphee with gets on friday
trying to get more people to join =D
and the campus superstar boys either look like they have an exeptionally low IQ, or have serious epilepsy=excessive spasms
hahaha =p
dont throw rotten eggs at me

and you've left for me, nothing but this huge, gaping hole in my heart
where it still hurts, and you dont know

omg yuck
wanzi! you bian tai ah
your happy tree friends
i accidentally clicked on it
then see cartoons so i go watch
since i havent watched for a long long time
and they all end up all smushed up and blood everywhere
and there was even one which got squeezed by those auto doors
and the body exploded and the brain landed in a pool of blood
its so bloody and gory yuck yuck yuck
scare me half to death can
but i still wanna watch xp
ohman what's my problem

eh my mum's going to usa on wed
so if im lucky i get a lift frm her taxi to school
thn she go airport ((:

aargh the happy tree friends made me feel like jelly
-gulp :s
if i get nightmares, wanzi, its your fault :s:s:s

all it took was a phonecall
hurr stupid me
cry for what
my eyes hurt alr
why do you have to make me cry
everytime
you wanna hear my voice but i dont wanna hear yours
im used to life without it
dont intrude, please
i love my current life
either leave me alone altogether or come back
i cant believe this is happening to me
hurr drama leh

trng tmrw
can i wake up? :p

aargh stupid fiesta
now i feel so paralysed
my neck shoulders arms hurt like hell

sundays are boring
theres no tv to watch
nowhere to go
and i dont feel like reading
or doing homework :x

i cant even raise my arms to comb my hair properly
boohoohoo