walau hmmpfh
what's wrong with me!
rah. haha i do stupid things
tsk -slaps self

haha we had proj meeting yesterday before sports carnival
but then it kinda turned out to be more like a playing session la haha
we went to play swings opp the amk library
so reminiscing of my 4-year-old times! cos i got to see the cheng san park agn (:
i used to go with my ahma everyday in those days ):
i wish i could go back
haha ok i should extract myself from the past
i just hope this weekend lasts forever
because i dont know and i dont dare to face the whole world.
and you made me feel like shit.
ok no its my fault because im just stupid and useless.

boo im bored haha
everyone's in school
and im continuing rotting away haha

so shit la i went to the bus stop in the morn intending to pass poon the hist stuff
then it started raining like 10seconds before i reached the bus stop
wdv lor, no umbrella leh
i went home and i tried to sleep cuz i cldnt slp the whole night
haha i think i slept like 2 hrs altgt these 2days. rahh.
im sucha freaking loser full stop.
all i do is waste oxygen haha.
i tried to sleep and i ended up losing. again.
ohfuck. bloody weak. >:/

yay i got one day mc

haha gets! one day i will find the screwdriver
thankew gets and mogu, for listening to me rant like hell

wah im so tired haha
i peeled more than one hour's worth of onions!
haha and i really cried leh
my hands still smell of onions please
then we went to chase chickens and went for prata
takoballs yesterday. you say i not fat, i laugh please.

2.4 tmrw! -shakes head. haha no actually im not worried
my paranoia glands are normal ok. not like shirley's, over-active haha ><
i die please
i think there's something wrong with my blogger, but never mind haha

i think i have PPMS leh. Permanent Pre-Mental Syndrome haha.
never smile at home one. shit.
i sinned haha

How will you die? You scored as Suicide. Your death will be suicide.What more can I say?Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.If you want to know how you will commit suicide, take a look at your second highest percentage on the bar graphs. Suicide 100% Posion 67% Disease 67% Suffocated 53% Disappear 53% Stabbed 47% Cut Throat 47% Accident 47% Drowning 33% Eaten 33% Bomb 27% Natural Causes 13% Gunshot 7% tsk haha.

haha i wonder if this is considered late but well
im feeling fat after all that pizza! :DD

theres this belinda who crictisized snsj on her blog, haha.
and her sqdmate priscilla said "lets all quit tgt"
hooray man, if tht happens. wahhaa
well she's gonna get hell for the rest of her sj life, if she still isnt aware.
tsk. im pretty sure 2 mean ppl are gna make sure of tht.
please stand under the sun and pump until knees blacken very cam meh.
she think we never kena tht before! wht the shit! hahahaha
i find it endlessly amusing please.
and she scolded her " 'seniors' " "fucking". ok la see wht she gets!
i just stand and watch, and cheer them on.
haha the mermaid part rocks man, whn you talk to people with super low IQ, like them.

eh i realized if its the me 6mths ago, i'd fuming right now
maybe scold vulgarities or slap her whn i see her in school on monday
but i lost the ability to be angry! haha its scary, really.
so treasure the times whn you find it in you to flare up (:
loss of emotions. rahh. wht are you doing, tomoe yoshida!
you are the one who shld go boil your head.

hmm im supposed to be searching for my 6 history articles! :p
haha my h/w aint touched yet
tsk
went bkfasting with karkar today
i almost starved to death can! bkfast at 1130! -faints

hmmpfh thn later i went walking arnd amk centre, walk walk walk
thinking about you
then macbeth meeting
i was at the mrt station!
thn maykun went directly to my house instd haa
so she crossed back and we crossed tgt. stupid right!
thn stupid sylvia was late agn! tsktsk
i almost chopped her up x)

haha i laughed until i almst died can
sylvia and maykun damn funny
i laughed until my stomach so pain! hahah : DD
i realized i never laughed so in a long time i've never been happy for such a long time
ok history chem eng chinese here i come! )=
ahwell i shall look forward to the 4day weekend nxt week : D

rah my maths test!
i got 14, and i lost THE ONE mark cos of units. what the hell lah.
hmpfh first time i failed a test in my whole entire wide life. -sighs and shakes head
and i noticed sth very funny [xp] during cca, hahhahah.
;)

adsh!$£^$%BF i feel useless again
shit
i feel stagnant, quote frm gets.
rah why! i cant understand humans, they're so scary
i'm better off in my own world
where i keep everything simple
ok i think i go watch da chang jin now haha x)

ahh i feel so lousy
how did i get tangled up in this horribly complicated web
which isnt any of my business,
only chills my heart

don't touch me with your filthy hands-shirley
everything seems twice as loud-me

don't touch me with your filthy hands says:
haha oh u try try try not to not SMILE coz it's reli qt scary
don't touch me with your filthy hands says:
and if u notice when i dun reli talk to u i'm scared of ur look pls !
everything seems twice as loud says:
huh really ah haha XD
everything seems twice as loud says:
people say i look like im stoning leh! HAHA
don't touch me with your filthy hands says:
stoning FIERCELY pls

ohman i think this is so funny haha. laugh please.
life is full of rubbish, how? hmmpfh. chn lit, you're not welcome.
go away lah. everyone everything. tsk.

i only want to look from afar
because i knw tht if i sink in too deep, i'll only get pain in the end.

YES life is short
so it isnt perfect if there's too much pain [quoted from some certain mogu haha :P]
but it also isnt perfect if you haven't felt pain or if i never knew you, although yo were never there
hmm went home with mich today
and had a rather hilarious uh, encounter with a certain jnr
ahahha.
she behaved like i would eat her up la haha.
i almost became indian lah. xD

rah my 2.4 :S
tsk. i got A last year lor
unbelievable right.
but this year is like haha lah

haha and yay week five's ending! :D
today's wednesday haha
thn thurs then fri :DD

stupid macbeth la rah
be it the real one, the one in the play or the one in my grp :P
tsk

and my stupid migraine haha
not like i welcome it lah
if it conts im considering not gng sch tmrw haha :P

who wants to go Pluto with me! haha
cant stand Earth anymore :/
esp stnicks Earth ):

the first thing i do when i see you
is pretend you're not there
pretend i don't care
then i regret

yay my belt never kena (:
cuz its HIGH : D -guai look
haha ok nobody will believe me

hmms ju eng home!
haha i think barbara rocks ((:
she told us so much haha
and how her mother died ):
and how she hates men [YES ME TOO!]

shannen was feeding this auntie lah haha
her and her ba chor :p
so picky! shannen got serious backache aft feeding her haha
so noble of her ((:
and patient lah. compared this ridiculous nurse i saw who was feeding another person
she just shovel food down her mouth lah, spoonful after spoonful
dont care whether she swallow alr not
i wonder why she didnt choke lah. :/
haii so poor thing )):
i'll never allow myself to be put in tht kinda place whn i grow old lor
at least a sum of money for yang lao
dont depend on children (if you have) haha. wont work one

haha ok lah sounds so depressing. lunch with tracie on thurs ((:

why cant i just get rid of all these. useless.

and i realize you are the reason why i want it

haha i changed my skin! again haha
i mussed up the links
theres no particular order
just wanted to mess everything up
cuz im messed

shit lah havent done my math h/w!
we had a long weekend and its sunday night alr
argh. all i feel like doing is staring into space for hours at a time
darned! rah haha. SELF DISCIPLINE!
where are you!

haha macbeth today
i went out like one hour before to get the stuff! and i bought 5 pads of foolscap haha
super heavy
thn went to amk mrt to collect sylviafoong and porlin
stupid sylvia was late lah!
we were starting on wool of bat whn gets called haha
thn she said she wanted to come thn later go suntec tgt
so she came lah! were supposed to leave at like 1445?
but ended up, due to unforeseen cirumstances, leaving at 1530
SORRY!
and we were one hour late when we reached new creation?
and we were like wearing clothes freshly out of the washing machine :/
my poor soggy toes!
i wanna go the camp! rah but must wait til my mum's back thn can ask :/
thou i doubt she'll allow lah haiya
its 120 bucks leh! and my mum has to feed dno how many people leh!
if im not careful i think i'll need to apply for welfare soon :/
haha ok joking lah.
or maybe i can get people to buy me food whn i'm really poor
haha
i just viewed last year jtc photos lah! haha
alot of people changed so much, be it outside or in.
it seemed to be more bad changes than good :/
nevermind! jtc's coming in approximately 2mths! haha
wdv lah! stupid me
my cheerleading sun and mittened, scarfed icecube (:
but my heart still bleeds

rahness im bored:/
so much for holiday lah
homework homework and more homework :/
ah shit i havent done any yet.
im getting to be more and more of a procrastinator :/
someone help me
i dont know what i go to school for anymore
boring lessons, one after another
i said i'd forget it! stupid useless idiot
i thought you were very forgetful?

and i dont know where's my phone :/
i left it on the table in the morning, and now i still cant find it
i just feel like letting me disintegrate
then maybe we'd all be happier.
nineteenseptninetytwo shouldn't have existed

haha got letter frm my sp
as i expected right. she asked if im chinese.
haha.
thn gets said the other day someone came to look for me
and she said i dao my jnrs.
hahah. there's about like 3 tht i recognise?
sorry lah. my memory's worse than the leaking pipe in art room :p

oh ya thn when we were leaving the canteen to go home aft lunch right
sylvia said she walked past this grp of secones
and she heard "tomoe yoshida" haha
haha im so famous :p

and stupid dotty dorothy wong wongster [yes i have no qualms abt scolding openly]
wht crappy shit
she tell shirley gets and me talk bad abt shirley?
like, wdv lah.
abit we talk bad also talk abt her right. and somemore she was so far away.
but thn wells luckily no sane person would believe wht she says.
cuz she's insane. isolation from human society, to quote gets. ;)

wl menses makes me fat, i swear. :/
i've been eating non-stop since ystd, only short of dreaming abt eating lah.
haha why am i talking abt this here lah.

cuz i suck so

hmms haha
i fell asleep just now! aft doing the chem w/s
and while smsing mich
lala then abit phonecall woke me up lah
qt lucky eh i put my phone under my pillow haha
good i shall do tht (:

and i think im immune to shocks alr (:(:(:
really i dont get any shocks anymore
just tired tht people are so
dno wht to say la
whts so nice abt badmouthing ppl lah haha
and to tht someone, pls dig your ears properly before trying to overhear others' conversations la
:/

rah disaster is an understatement for the math test i suppose
):

wl i just feel like tagging some people,
saying, "YOU SUCK LIKE HELL"
or "stop acting!! dont you get tired of acting everywhere to everyone?"
but aargh i gta control myself!! haiya


and then, the whole world is bitching

Banana-chan`shouted out + 18:56:00 [#]

now i know what's been eating me
inside out
im sorry if i wasnt as good as her
i didnt like it too
and you didnt knw how much i wanted to scream "ow"

aaargh someone help meeeeeeeeee
i hate all the tangents and cosines and sines
and wht does it matter to me if those two three-sided things are similiar
or congruent?

went back mum's home
and the smell there haha
reminded me of him
and i let pain eat me up agn
and left me breathless the whole day
the stupid stone slab

i felt the pain all over again
you freaking bitchy idiot,
just let it go
and you'll be tons happier
it sucks to be human

i carn wait for monday!
but when its monday, i cant wait for late friday evening
rahhh

i knw i hate being at home, thats all
cuz its so empty, nothing for me to feel
so i go back to the pain
and i cant stop it

i said i'd get over it
but i still can't
but no matter long it takes,
i'll go through it
and be back better than ever

woah karkar's church is so super cool! haha
or maybe its just cos i'm sucha suakoo
i thought it'd be some boring old church x)
we sat right in front at the first row haha
and i didnt fall asleep or daydream! haha
no actually i dont fall asleep drng sch mass
but its a miracle i didnt start daydreaming
or staring blankly out into space
gets said she fell asleep lah
hurrhurr

and i got my watch back!
my deardear watch which stupid city chain kept for like a whole month?!
rahhness
haha actually they said three weeks
so i calculated, supposed to get it back one week before comp
but the glass was wht, out of stock, need three to six MONTHS.
so might as well get it back first
but now i wear it, feels very small leh
haha cos the watch i was wearing is damn big
yes i know haha

eh i didnt know macbeth actually existed haha
i thought he was just from Shakespeare's imagination hahaha

yayness i love my new blogskin!! :D

now i realized tht trngs were the only reason i went to school
the only thing that pushed me through the lame lessons
but now i go home early 4 days a week
to 4 blank walls
and piles of homework
notes and tests
walau
everything just feels so different
even saying bye is different
it used to be "bye!" and a "see you tmrw for trng!"
but now its goodbye for good
hahaha

aaaargh!
i feel so
心痛!

haha going huangshan!
and my mum asked me why i wasn't excited
haha i think i am lah
just not yet
let me let go of this first

lunch today was nice ((:
it was the few hours since sunday
tht i felt like everything was normal
or as close to normal as things can be
tht i felt happy

wl today was like dno wht lah
but i want the trophy so much much more now
cuz maybe i just didn't put in enough
didn't perform well enough

fourth
thanks to everyone who consoled me :D
i love all of you! :DD


this feeling isn't nice
but i'll be back next year
you'll see.

i'll miss folding the bedlinen
i'll miss making the bed
i'll miss complaining about trng
i'll miss flagging for the ambulance
i'll miss getting nagged at for everything
i'll miss worrying about zcomp

oh my god i'm so freaking nervous now :/
ok this is just to say
i'll love nc3 no matter what happens
whether we win or lose tmrw
haha yeah i know i complained alot and i was horrible
but i'll miss trngs after comp

JIAYOU EVERYONE!! : D

tmrw's comp!
eurgh and i screwed ystd's assessment
ok nvm wht's over is over
my ONE AND ONLY shot is tmrw
i musn't panic!

NC3! i love my grp : D
thanks to everyone who encouraged me : D esp gets! haha