"someone who isnt predisposed to like ____, yes?
like ahh uhm yes!
so i was quite right, wasn't i? haha um i think i was right haha"

three years later, its time to wake up from this dream.
this scary, scary dream.
time to wake up and stop wasting efforts.

an evil, rotting tongue and an empty space where your conscience should be.

in the end close is all there is, but i won't find this.

they teach us to be happy when you get good results,
and to work hard to get all those A1s.
they teach us that the world is cruel,
and that it is full of hypocrites.
they teach us to strive to be like those who are better,
and to be empathetic towards those who are worse off;
but they never taught me how to let go,
they never taught me how to direct a lost heart.

a dark room, a tiny enclosed space with no windows, no door and no furniture.
is it because you're blind, it really is dark, or is it simply because i'm standing stock-still where i am with my eyes closed?

"send" is a scary button to click
and i think i've reached the acme today. O:)

i might've ended up with the conclusion that its me but it doesn't really matter now.
because whatever it is, tomorrow will still come in 2 hours and i'm still going to grow one day older in 2 hours. :/
just take it as it comes, cos its the only way to manage.
or you can also try sticking your hands into tubs of ice to ignore the fire and hope the thawing won't hurt so much afterwards.
rather, you should hope that your fingers thaw and not get frostbite and drop off.

and ho, i've put on my invisibility cloak, which is why you can't see me

someone tell me how to do it and i will just do whatever it is i'm told to.
cos im sick of continuing to think of what to do when all that comes out is crap.
agn and agn we're repeating the same bullshit because.. i don't know why.
maybe its lack of trying. maybe.

God knows i'm friggin' tired.

if two-faced hypocrisy is the only way to protect yourself, is it wrong to use it?
if sarcasm is the only way to mask your insecurity, is it wrong to use it?
if indifference is the only way to hide your fear, is it then wrong to use it?