God. Damn. It. I swear sometimes I just get frustrated for nothing. Its like this silly thing that only certain people can trigger off in me, but its more than enough. Uh huh and then when people around me start talking to me, I gotta act like I'm still super high, happy and whatnot.
*ANGST ALERT
Neways, I was just thinking the past few weeks, maybe its time for a change of environment. What I've been doing all along could be wrong for me, maybe there's another place that suits me better. I just never envisioned a life outside the one I'm having, outside the one everybody else is probably going to have. That thought of jumping on a plane and flying off is really temptinggg. I think I'm need of a challenge of some sorts. Waltzing off to another country may sound really flighty, but when I get there at least I'd have to adapt all over again, right? Sort of like an awakening call to my deflated and stagnant soul. (Okay, I'm sounding all Victorian era-ish now but still...)
AND I'M SERIOUS. After spending my whole life here, I still feel like I don't fit it. I mean, yeah, I know whatever people my age are supposed to know- the customs, mannerisms and all that but then what? Idk but everyone seems to be on a different wavelength. Its not like I don't have friends, okay hold that I have plenty of acquiantances of varying degrees of closeness. But no friends. Other than my sister, probably, but that's totally different cos its like we have our own worlds; and there are certain things I cant say to her because she is my sister.
I've been doing the same old things for, like, forever. I'm seriously bored. I feel stagnant, maybe Aedes' gonna start breeding inside my brain. I need some action.
Harghhhh I've been on the comp almost the entire day lol. Posting around and stuff, been reading a book. My eyes feel sucky now. Other than that, nothing. Can't even catch lolly online to tell her gomen. Cuz she's had to edit practically every post for me. I feel even more rubbishy now, goddamnit lmao.
I need Obama now. I need Change. Change that is difficult to believe in.

Gahhh I'm just surfing Soompi like its my new home now o.O
Still, the scans/ news/ videos/ links/ comments are really making my day. Lurve~ YC with his ice cream! Though he's as dorky as usual but still cute, lol.
I shall give you a funny snippet of what my grandmother said:
GM: Achika
Me: Huh? Achika?
GM: The Japanese show you borrowed from your friend, somebody there said "Achika". What does it mean?
Me: I never heard sucha word before. You must've heard wrongly *laughs*
GM: ACHIKA ACHIKA ACHIKA
Me: ...
I seriously dk what she means, hahahaha. Imma waiting for college posting results tmr, sianzxzxz. I shall go and figure out how to use Subtitle Editor when I've the time. Its killing me, coz, like I said, I'm born in the wrong era. I am SO not suited to be on the comp.

h-e-l-p
i'm SO bored nowadays I am dying. Honestly, cross my heart. Being bored is making me stressed too (I think), my period came again 5 days after the last one ended and its hell. T_T
I've lost half my voice due to sudden overuse yesterday :/ Well, then again, my voicebox hasn't been used much the past 6 months. So, yeah, it probably doesn't take much for it to get tired.
I think I will go buy dramas to watch. Or ponder over my subject combination. Whichever. I feel like tearing my hair out right now!!!!!!
Okay, angst. Does not rule my life.
What on earth am I talking about man. -.-

I have serious doubts that I'm born in the right era. Maybe I'd find things a LOT easier if I were born in Flintstone's time carving wheels out of blocks of granite(?). This is because although I use the computer, I only use it to do a very limited number of things and visit a very narrow scope of websites. Meaning I am totally lost at websites such as Myspace. Or was it Facebook where I was accepting friends just now? Oh, whatever. So people, please don't hold it against me if I don't reply to you on those friends-making websites okay. Because I really don't know how to use them, as a matter of fact the last time i signed in was probably at the end of sec2. Or somewhere there. Okay enough ranting.

I want a new phone! And I want it to be a white flip phone, don't know why either. But I think it'll be hard? Don't think I've seen such a phone around for a VERY long time, and nobody wants to sponsor me. Plus my keyboard, esp the Shift key, is dying as well. Meanwhile, Mother 一点表示也没有, other than her sarcastic comments about Biology. ): All she does it put me down. Damnit.

*angst angst angst* heh.

Its been a long time since I blogged... to me, anyway.
Anyway, its kind of boring nowadays. Results out on Monday, if I do badly I might just run to Changi Airport and secretly climb onto the first plane and fly into oblivion. Not very plausible, though.
Yuckkk. Maybe one day I'll- Haish don't know luh. Buhbye. ><