I am going into fangirl mode now!
CHANGMIN-SSHI AHHHHH~ xD My head's floating away already eukyangkyang.
I am so jealous of Ying Ling coz she gets to meet her Fahrenheit! Where's my DBSK. So far away in Japan/Korea. Waiiiii?!?!?! -wails-
Haha okay anyway he's like the best person to make me forget all the @!%^*(!#^! in school. She's making me very, very stressed. Its like, the communication channels we use are totally different? Which is why I say its very interesting that the same things can happen to 2 persons, but they turn out total opposites. Interesting but when you are forced to be with the other person, it kinda sucks.
I am really trying hard to bear with it and be nice, you know, but I think I'm failing the latter. But then again if it doesnt really bother her then I guess I dont have to feel very guilty.
Its like I'm a weirdo also because I'm always hanging out with her! I mean, well, nobody said it to my face but I can tell what it looks like to others luh. Not their fault, obviously, probably nobody's but mine.
Then again, the weekend was really fun : D
Met up with Cass Chee on friday after school, haven't seen her since CNY which was like ages ago. Then I had verbal diarrhea and told her everything, including my complaints and whatnot. It was like so bitchy but I felt so much better after that, then a little guilty (I hope xD)...
Went home for dinner, then on9 chat with nic, lolly, virgina, xietin. I think I mentioned everyone... Oh and coryn as well. Super enjoyable : D
Then spent the next few hours watching videos, those super old ones from 2004 (LOL) and parodies etc etc. Went into full blown fangirl mode, then laughed til my stomach and cheeks hurt. Everyone should seriously go listen to misheard lyrics. I esp loved "Long Number". DAMN FREAKING HILARIOUS.
Basically I lazed around today lol. Did nothing except spazz and trans after finishing chem and CLL. Still havent done S2 Section D for maths! Ok i better go read the GP article now lol.

Don't know what's wrong with me these few days. Maybe its the overdue M, and term starting again. It'll be 10 busy weeks next, but I think (hope) they'll be rather enriching, if not stretching. I seriously need to stop channeling my stress towards food. I keep gorging myself, its not only the weight gain that scares me. Some times its like I don't want to eat anything at all and I can do that for such a long period of time its getting abnormal. And these fluctuations in food intake is more than I can bear. Its stressing me out as well, on top of everything else.
I keep feeling empty, like there's a gaping hole which I'm supposed to find something to fill. It gets annoying, and I hate that empty feeling. So I suppose I try to fill that up with food, which is obviously wrong. But there's nothing I can do, right? So I try to alleviate that feeling the only way I can, even though I know its not working.

On a happier note, I've fallen in love with my dear SCM again! I managed to find time to catch up with him and team again during the break, and their humility, diligence and resilience made their way into my life again. Hope this will be able to give me at least part of the motivation I need. Not to mention I need a goal. Am going to call PSC tomorrow, if I can find the time. Ask about the China/ Overseas Merit Scholarships.

Hope everything goes well, I don't know how much more I can take, what with my own blahs and all. :/