Nearly 17 years and I realize that I've lived in vain.
I've not achieved anything outstanding, I've never made a difference in anyone's life and neither have I made someone happier. I just live.
I just realized that even if I were to die now, nobody would realize until maybe tomorrow morning. And who would cry for me? Or would everyone I once knew just pretend that I never existed, that they never knew me?
I don't even know why God brought me into this world. I've left no impression, done nothing worthwhile. Nobody would want to be me I guess?
Everytime I sit at a table beside a family with a small kid, I can just imagine his/her parents telling him/her that he/she must not and cannot be like me when they grow older. Why? Because I'm ugly, stupid and useless. Everyone wants to be someone useful, but not everyone can.
I don't know what I can do, or should do. I just feel like sometimes it'd be better if I weren't here coz then I wouldn't be wasting oxygen.
I know I sound super emo, but. That's what I feel? I don't knw...
I'm in deep shit, seriously.