I haven't logged into Blogger for... I can't remember how long it has been.
If everything follows a cycle, then I must be recovering. Promos are over and I am getting promoted. Just dont know if its fortunate, or not.
Been feeling super lethargic of late, not exactly tired but more of sian. I will just attribute it to uncharacteristically late sleeping hours for days in a row and repeatedly, a first in my entire 17 years.
PWz is a killer cos there are so many things to do, but so many ways to go about doing it that I have no idea where to start from. I picture it as a rapidly revolving circular disk which I have to grab at the correct second and angle or I wont be able to grab hold of it. And I don't like to keep trying until I get it, I like to aim properly.
Decorations for Christmas are coming up already, which means we're nearing the end of yet another year. Technically I have learnt a lot this year, academically and not, but I still feel like something is missing? Hmm how do I put this into words. It feels like a bottle with a sheet of plastic insertednear the opening, and water is being poured into it continuously. It looks like its overflowing, but that's just because everyone's looking from the top view only. The side view, if you were to see it, would actually be rather comical.
Finished The Lost Symbol! And continuing with Sherlock Holmes tmrz. Secretly I know why I keep reading, but I don't want to admit it to myself. Panadol has got to be the most straightforward painkiller. Festive seasons are always more anticipatory than normal, but I don't dare to hold my breath because reflex will take over again. Nothing will happen, as usual. Maybe scabs don't ever heal. Sometimes Time doesn't do its job, just like how every one slacks at least occasionally. But I have to say Time has a good numbing effect.
I have reached a bottleneck, one that is not very narrow and very long. Meaning that I will probably be able to squeeze through it, but it will be a long and dreary process. Add that to the fact that I have no idea what's at the end of that tunnel-like bottleneck.
I like to be very busy and tired so that I can shorten the minutes before sleep as I lay in bed. Coz those minutes are very scary and I think of things I have feelings for. Which is bad because its unproductive because reality is different.