cca yesterday was hmm
pt was too long la
and we ran a lot. and i dont like running cos its like abcdefg boring

and then my shirt was like so stinky+dirty+colourful
cos of lying on the track
then i didnt bring extra shirt
so trng the ma'am asked me wht happened to my shirt :/

then my mum called me when we were marching arnd the parade square
but i couldnt pick up the phone right obviously
then she got angry. abit the hurr only.
then my ahma also angry
so i cannot go bbq. ):
say i saturdays also go out at 7am and not home by 6pm
rahh. not like this is the first time i went for trng lor.
went home then i kena drowned by their spits
and they threatened to make me quit my cca and blahblahs
no more agi no more mcomps no more nothing
k lor very good i go join library k! -.-

haha such a long and pointless post. and this laptop's super irritating cos i cannot see all the cbox tagboards. ughh.

my hair's so super disgusting now please! im going to cut! :D :D :D
and im so super dead cos i forgot to bring my physics and maths homework home. somemore the physics is graded leh. and both are due on monday. goodgood i shall copy during home econs tmrw.

those whom i need them to believe me will know that i didnt do it,
without needing me to tell them.
those who think that i did, i dont really need them to believe me.
its not only the tags.
but i dont feel angry at all you know. really haha.
nothing shocks anymore.

and after all these, i've really learnt my lesson
i've lost the only one i can trust.

i miss mini comp
i know its random haha sorry

and i will be careful to really show some spikes so that i wont be the one who gets poked.
be the one who goes around breaking hearts, not the other way around.

and then distrust rears its ugly head and manifests itself in the deep folds of darkness

no i don't cry on the outside anymore.

because all the more the world can't accept failures
all the more i'll tell them its okay to fail
but it wont be me

对不起.
i've taken to scribbling lyrics of the songs i'm listening to, doodling and drawing (as much as my very limited abilities allow) in my algebra homework.

because if no one can see it and no one knows it, you know it and God sees it.

just like how whys are answered by becauses, nobody looks beyond the busy bus-stops to notice that playground, especially those who used to play in it when they were young.

she fought for it and she won

time to turn the page.

melissa's house very very nice! haha
so is melissa and her mother <3>even better than big big bi hus
cos i just stepped on a big big bi hu
and i saw the small ones running away and they really avoided my step
so who says 姜 壁虎是老的辣 hehh
-winks- k fine sorry i'm being mean. >:

the maths dept lied cos i so do not agree that algebra is the language of mathematics
even if it is, its not my problem
and now the question is: what is she going to do with what she won?

hide them in a corner and never take them out again;

never even graze the surface again
i'm so scared i'll drown,
because i have drowned before
i can't put into words everything

uh huh. i shall start week four with my "Smile More" policy.
shall start smiling first step out of the house (: (: (:

nono im on a diet please dont make me go for AGI trng later ><

oh and POP. i really don't know what to say because everyone else has said it alr.
i shall uh, look forward to CCA under the reds and 'til then shalt thou decide.
and the greys! for so many many things they were there and now they're not gna be
one year's worth of attire checks and PT and FD sessions, scoldings, pumpings, trainings, my first comps,POP and CCA fair.
i'm gna need some time to get used to CCA without their presence.

oh and yes congrats to gets melissa chinpei! PSes eh.
and of course rachel the CL. hehheh.
im so proud of you all! :D

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything. You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life. You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you. Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace. You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life. Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times. At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you. You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others. You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

stupid la. i really dont knw wht to do wht to say wht to feel.
its your fault your fault YOUR FAULT. you're always destroying my mood
why dont you just glue your butt there in your fricking japan.

sorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrysorrySORRY
one each to shirley, melissa, gets, karchian, rachel, peiwen, shannen, jiamin, siyun and mogu.
and the BIG one is for everyone :D
sorry for giving you all my sucky face and attitude problems everyday, i'll try to smile more (:
for getting irritated even though you are all very very nice to me
for ignoring you jiamin during lessons whn im pissed/tired/frustrated, sorry
for being such a lousy friend-cum-classmate-cum-sqdmate, sorry shirley sorry sorry sorry
for being an horrible freak who says bad things to you and pushes the sci ppt to you, sorry gets
for not doing my projects well because im such a lazy pig, sorry melissa shannen peiwen rachel shirley gets sylvia karchian
for being so sarcastic to your jokes, sorry siyun
for making you listen me rant all my freaking crap tht you dont have to listen to, sorry mogu
im a lousy person. x(
please dont hate me and forgive me okay?
was talking to siyun and we're both guilty of being irritating idiots who do not appreciate how nice other people have been to them and being irritated with them.
i'll try my best to be nicer okay! and i dont know how to face everyone tomorrow.

and yes i know im the lousiest and rubbishest daughter, sorry

tomoe yoshida was doing a backward roll during pe lesson
but she was too fat so she tumbled to the left
she did something to her shoulder/neck which hurt
and she could not turn or move her head the whole day
so shirley lau siew hui was very very nice and brought her to look for sinseh in woodlands marsiling
but thn the sinseh actually closed down alr

haha thts wht happened in the first day of the week
i love shirley! <33 haha thanks lots! :D

thn i just went to see this sinseh and he listed out all my problems except you
and so ive to abstain from chicken and all forms of nuts
which is so !#$%&*)#

early dismissal yesterday
went kbox with gets shirley melissa :D
thn shirley stood beside the slightly opened door and screamed hokkien songs
and these people in the room opp us were laughing

i shall have to learn to iron my sj skirt myself >:/
dont iron for me lor hmph. i can always learn to iron myseeelf.

why cant you just stay there and dont bother me forever for the rest of my life?
i dont how to react to you. irritatinggg
and you spoilt half my day yesterday

i know i'm not the same, my life you've changed

um. haha eh on my way home my butt was so painful
i thought i had piles!><
so ya i walked like a duck all the way back home. :/
hmm thn i got scolded
wht how come my sis can be home so early and im always so late
like hello, she's nine in primary three and im thirteen in secondary two?
so ridiculous can.
and i think my third hole's rotting or something?!
theres like puss in bootspus and blood coming out.

yay ive got chocolate to help those dying in the double-math-followed-by-double-physics timetable today :D

i feel so bad x)
cos i made michelle stay back these two days with me until 5 plus
and i made her listen to my irritating rantings and she had to talk to me
im so stupid but i cant help feeling like that
and then i realized didnt look at how i felt about him and her
but im like what, 2 years late?
whatever it is, there's nothing i can do.
k im not making any sense and im not going to slip into depression about something that's two whole years late.
but something keeps reminding me of years and years ago

and while everyone's mourning over the world cup thing
im here ((:

fine dont let me go for cca
dont let me go out at all lah, ground me lor
ive had enough since start of the year k.
it was tiring, staying back four days a week
struggling for tests, homework, trainings, everything else you throw at me
and when i get home all of you just show me this big fat black face
i had to start making myself smile at the lift, so that i could show you a smiling face
and force myself to do homework and study for tests, albeit occasionally
even though all i wanted to do was to lie on the bed and crysleep
when it was over, i had to arrive home smiling
i never dared to cry in front of you, no matter what i was feeling inside
cuz that would be proving you right
now its just one friday night later than usual and one saturday out
and you say im spending too much time on sj,
that you wont allow me to go for anymore competitions or whtever there might be in the future
fine im not a good daughter/sister/granddaughter/person/student
anything. but i wont stay home to lick your shoes just cuz you told me to.