If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
God's will won't take you where His grace won't protect you.

but now i'm busy resenting some lame things! haha. (:

there was once a frog who lived very happily in his well. he thought he was the happiest frog in the world, because he was comfortable living where he was, and he had food and water to sustain him day after day. also, he could look at the same patch of sky every day.

the frog knew that there was a passageway leading away from his well to the unknown above. one day, he was forced to take that path because there were no more insects for him. the passageway was long, narrow and dark. countless times, he felt like giving up and going back to his well. however, every time these thoughts came to him, he told himself, "one more step. one more step and i'll see the light." finally, he did it.

naturally, the frog was elated. he hopped around, exploring his new-found freedom. he gazed at the azure sky above him- it was so much larger than he thought it was! he realized how constricted his line of vision had been.

unknown to him, an older frog had been watching him.
the old frog then hopped over. he shouted down, "look carefully around you, young one. see where is it you really are."

this time, the frog started digging his own way up.

NA5- tomoe. natalie. jesmine. jiahui. clarissa. aikching.
what has ended, for me, is not a three month-long journey, but one that lasted three years.
it gets harder, but better every time. from the initial lack of direction, to knowing where i wanted to go, and finally to saying- and meaning that placing is really just an added bonus.
sometimes, seeing things from different light really makes me appreciate how lucky i have been, and still am.
i would never have made it through without a single one of the many, many people who were there for me all the time- natalie, gets, yinyee, eehui, joelle... to name a few.
and also everyone who told me it was okay yesterday, because they made it okay. happy, huiying, valerie, olivia, lynette, ivy, tess, too many to name.
it is a truly wonderful feeling to be able to look back and say, "i gritted my teeth and persevered through it all." i believe that all the tears yesterday were not so much those of disappointment, but more of the realization of how good you've all been, and how tough this journey has been. so, NA5- i am really really so proud of every single one of you. and of course, i can't tell you how much i appreciate your efforts, because there are things whereby words cannot convey.
and so i retire never to set foot in the "battlefield" again, after 4 competitions! (6 including 2 minicomps). (i am secretly very happy! :P)

the way you cut yourself off so completely stuns me, yet the next moment you're acting like we're polite acquaintances.
then i feel so ridiculous for being so bothered, because you make me feel like a disposable paper cup.
and i am getting butterflies in my stomach.

i ate like nobody's business today, louisa was so shocked.
if i continue eating like this, you will see a walt-whittaker-sized tomoe in no time at all.
but eating makes me happy!

i think i'm too selfish, but it doesn't seem half as meaningful now.
just like how a sponge will not feel light and dry after getting wrung too many times, too frequently. instead, it just feels increasingly saturated with each wring, and eventually it goes limp.

Time to recharge!
I AM GONNA MAKE IT :D

Mrs Goh believes that i can get an L1R5 of 6, and i'm trying to be as confident as she sounds:/ (but well she thinks the same for everyone)
Due to a random thought, I'd like to say thank you/sorry/im tired/shut up/go away/ goodbye to various people.
I need my fair dose of sleep/chocolate/talking/siaozxzxness! AND I AM GOING TO GET IT, BY HOOK OR BY CROOK. But then at the same time we need to keep our feet on the floor and study, which explains the corporal punishment meted out to us by teachers.

Nonchalant is the best way we can be

Today everyone sounded like corn! And I was part of "everyone" haha
And my diaphragm hurts now because I did too much screaming and too much laughing today (:O
While waiting for Bio extended lesson to start:
Mary-Anne: -sits on Gets' seat-
Gets: (walking into class) -signals for Mary-Anne to get up-
Mary-Anne: (being slow) -stones-
Gets: (reaching her seat) get up! -hysterically-
Mary-Anne: okay, I'm sorry Gets, for trespassing upon your sacred seat!

I don't know what got into me, but that last line really started me laughing hysterically.

就在你的生日的时候 我将小小口琴送
最难忘记 你的笑容
友情的细水慢慢流 流到了你我的心中
曾在球场边为你欢呼 你跌伤我背伏
夜里流星飞渡 想像着他日的路途
晚风听着我们壮志无数

人生的际遇千百种 但有知心长相重
人愿长久 水愿长流 年少时候

you make me want to curl up in bed under 10 blankets and never move.
i should have known that it was too good to last.

maybe its time to move on, but then i'll never know what could have been.